There, there. Here comes the feeling I thought I've lost it.
Truth hurts. And that's exactly what I should do, by telling the truth. But I wasn't. It's too hurtful. It's gonna cut quite deep.
Jatuh pada kata-kata adalah sesuatu yang indah pada aku. Pada, bagaimana ia menyelami perkataan dan menghargai metafora.
Jatuh pada janji-janji adalah lain pula bagi aku. Janji dan keikhlasan. Kadang buat aku letih. Letih berdiri di atas lutut goyah yang bakal rebah antara kepercayaan dan keikhlasan.
Sometimes, I rather not think about it.
Kadang kata-kata berupa harapan, bukanlah seperti yang kita harapkan. Dan menjadi sesuatu yang kita pegang, adalah untuk tidak mudah memberi kepercayaan. Untuk tidak mudah jatuh.
Sometimes, just sometimes, I feel like I really need to stop reading. Because only then, I see that there are mortals around me. That there is a whole world, a real one, is trying to talk to me instead of me having conversations with dear self.
I don't know anymore, if reading is a good thing.
When these people can't stop complaining about how miserable their life is. How because of that one opportunity they get, that people like us didn't get it, and they just can't stop whining, and it's annoying. Really really annoying, that they should just stfu, and be grateful instead.
Is it that hard? To say thanks? Rather than eternally complaining?
I have this urging curiosness going around
And the whole of its existing architectural
How it became a sweet-sweetful thought
Of me sucking it.
I studied and wondered
How the dust and the chemicals
Steaming the throat
Heating the bronchioles
Warming the nerves
Gives a contained satisfaction.
'If you wanna know how does it feel like, you have to try.
That my friend, is a complete discovery.'
I can't sleep
Maybe I can if I try hard.
You complained on how early I hit the shack lately
That you've waited for me
Even if it takes the whole night.
How am I not feel tired at all
How am I not sleepy a bit
Like have you sucked my sleepness darling
Because you're now sleeping soundly
While i'm here wondering of why my eyes are hardly shut.
It's been awhile, right?
Life has been good
I'm no longer jobless now
And I wish that September comes sooner
So I can quit early.
Sometimes i'm happy with people around
And sometimes I wish the day just end faster.
It's funny when you love someone so much and suddenly the thought came and it was like, you really think you're gonna marry him? Like, don't you remember God and his plans?
I'm glad I have a stepmom
Sometimes, you need other moms because that one mom you have, doesn't understand you.
I was thinking that when the day mom's gone, what would I react, how?
I can't think.