11 ramadhan.
aku bukan jenis yang selalunya akan open tentang sesuatu benda. especially at this age. whenever someone tells a story about them, it usually ends with me. i dont favor spreading ppl’s shits around. thus, im expecting ppl to do the same when its my turn telling them my shits which usually a big mistake.
anyhow, wherever we are in life, it’s important that we have ppl that we can share our achievements, aims and supports. to my friends, if you really are the one, i hope we dont just stop talking to each other just because we’re going in separate ways. friends make efforts. and i hope im not the one who stops making effort.
seusai kopi ais power setengah cawan, kerana kopi yang di-claim power tak lah sepower mana, dan mobile gaming sesh, dan ketawa-ketawa, dan perbualan panjang diselangi eye contact, sempat aku jengah ke arah bulan penuh dan pekat malam yang membawa angin dingin. i havent had coffee like a month or so. dan badan aku lebih chill menerima kopi daripada teh. maybe i should slow down on consuming tea for awhile. also, we’ve sort of covered 70% of seremban/senawang roads. so that one is a yay for us definitely.
although i do get lonely over time.
i dont think i should show it.
sometimes i even think of or calculating on how long will i survive.
being so independent is so fucking exhausting. cause you’re always adapting. it’s your mind working and your body doing. one more day / one more month / another year..
sometimes, when it hits you, you just push pause. “hold on world. whatever inside me or my brain, needs rest.” and i just wait for the thoughts to go. sometimes i pray, other times it just go away after 2 hours or so. you should know how your body works especially when it happens so often.
i’ll pray that we will do this every year together, buka - terawih - moreh. until we can finally sahur together. lol? we’ll find time. and we’ll be alright.