actually, nothing much.
i rarely read books nowadays, even questioned how some people can manage reading continuously. correction, i dont even read anymore. i'm in readers block phase.
10km for a beginner runner wasnt easy yet i achieved that. big applause to dear self. dan selepas itu wujudlah series of scam trainings serta alasan alasan untuk tidak turun berlari. i dont wanna fool myself thinking i wanna do it but i actually dont. tunggu lah bila ada mood.
sesi lepak masih berjalan seperti biasa. kawan kawan yang belum berkahwin, bercadang untuk berkahwin, tiada plan berkahwin, duduk rapat satu meja berdiskusi tentang rumahtangga orang lain. favourite. you cannot miss this kinda things.
i dont know the word 'makan berhidang' until one of my friend pointed it out. ya kami makan berhidang. makan pagi pukul 9 dan berakhir pada jam 11. we talk about anything, everything. i think that's what family's about. you share, or you just listen. waktu makan adalah waktu yang paling aku tunggu. tak perlu rokok cuma air panas dan momen momen.
aku masih berfikir fikir untuk memiliki sebiji mirrorless. dan duit untuk travel.. mungkin nanti.
September 22, 2017
actually, nothing much.
August 20, 2017
August 10, 2017
it's not actually that long it's just, i used to write 3-4 post a month. dan ini bukan posting sedih.
taknak sound cliche but... life has been very good to me this past months. i am blessed. i am blessed for every little thing that you'd probably be annoyed by now. that sometimes, aku rasa that i dont deserve this much blessings. macam, i am happy but some people are having it worse i feel guilty for having such feelings. i am allowed to but life is a running wheel.
once, a good friend of mine said, "kau bagilah camera apa pun kat sarah, the pictures will turn out good." also, i wrote "i am a fast learner" in my resume. i just wanted to point that out. anyway, i actually prayed hard for a job that specifically has a non-stressful and good environment kinda job, like real hard. my degree doesn't deserve this? well, suck my ass. also, thanks for all the advises and supports i get from lovely people you guys are the real mvp i am so grateful.
meanwhile, here's my 2017 achievements so far because... (i am allowed to.)
ps// 5th: gained weight also lost 0.7kg later on. 7th: not yet achieved but insyaAllah.
pps// funny as we turned older, we no longer talk much about who gets better marks but who gets better pay/opportunity/career. i always find it exhausting to talk about people.
July 13, 2017
come to think of it, does success mean running a business and have shitload of money? el-o-el. i dont know anymore.
patutlah orang cakap, you are what your circles are. bukan orang biasa biasa cakap, imam syafie also said so, sahabat nabi, successful people you name it. also in this case, people you follow on social media. your 'friends' on social media. it's weird tho sebab people are so different there.
being where i am now, looking back, i dont know what i really want anymore. seeing people showing off how successful they are, i dont know IF i am getting somewhere. of course, aku belajar something. but, is this it? i'm not lost but also i am not there. not yet. perhaps, jauh lagi.
aku yang tak sabar ke? atau people are moving too fast? or is it only happen to certain people?
of questions yang tak ada jawapan.
June 14, 2017
ii. i thought i got it all good. macam, why do i have to be a girl? with emotions.. oh god.
iii. pernah sekali, atau beberapa attempts untuk aku jadi someone other than myself. guess what? i regret it a lot.
iv. i just dont really share things with people on socmed. i do sometimes but i'd feel the need to delete it later.
v. and why am i still up at 1 am i do not know.