January 6, 2018

2017 wrapped.

posting dengan tajuk paling cliche sengaja aku pilih. bosan hidup kalau asyik menongkah arus.

it had been quite a long year i think. macam, i did so many things (not sure if it's some sort of achievement) sampai aku boleh rasa ia adalah tahun yang panjang. i'm blessed nevertheless.

ada some part yang aku rasa i'm living in stagnancy. while ada some part yang i think i'm living too fast. i always find new things which is good tapi untuk beristiqamah dalam satu-satu perkara tu bukan kepakaran aku. entah. aku terlalu mengejar the idea of living fast instead of improving in life. contohnya macam, aku sering come up dengan new ideas but i rarely stay on that idea.

it's tougher than trying new things in case you didnt know.

anyway here are some of the achievements:
  • achieved a total of 100km run within 6-months
  • joined 5 running events in which 2 of it were 10km distance
  • i know how to swim. properly. (at least 5 laps of breaststroke + water treading/survival)
  • managed to gain weight. 2kgs. not much, but still
  • read four books wow i need to read more in 2018
i think 2017 is more of making friends, be there, more self-care, emotional control and getting my shits together and financial management which i sucks at, so bad. that's all. i'm wishing everyone will get what they wanna achieve in 2018. amen.

December 17, 2017

aku tenang. - 4.20

now, i'm trying to remind myself to pray whenever i feel hopeless, or feel bad, or feel depressed, or feel like something is being taken away from me. i'm making it a habit.

November 26, 2017

bandung, a memory

ada satu perasaan yang kita bawa pulang selepas menempuh suatu perjalanan. contohnya macam sekarang. boleh jadi juga atas sebab aku baru balik dari kampung.

"life, i love you." bak kata avianti armand di twitter. this is what i feel now.

aku bakal ke indo lagi, nanti. sebab orang-orang di sana, budi bahasanya, lenggok tutur katanya, sifat sabarnya, suasananya. aku jadi rindu.

ada tempat-tempat yang tak sempat kami kunjungi kerana cuaca yang tak menentu dan keadaan hujung minggu yang macet. tapi cukup. tak sempurna tapi sangat cukup pada aku.

mungkin juga aku dah lama tak rasa seperti ini. rasa diterima di sini, di dunia. rasa ingin memberi cinta.

life is good. god is good. this feel is true.


bandung, indonesia.
17 nov. 2017 - 21 nov. 2017.

October 1, 2017

minggu: proses mengenal diri.

i. i listen to jazz a lot more lately. it keeps me calm. and it kinda reminds me of Japan.

ii. manusia yang tenang adalah manusia yang dapat mengawal kesihatan mental dan fizikal seterusnya mengawal keadaan di sekililingnya.

iii. i always know that i liked confused thriller than drama/romantic comedy.

iv. sometimes, it does feel like own a transport is easier. somehow, what i'm having now teaches me to be patient and grateful. i keep reminding myself about this.

v. god i love how soft my hair is now. thank you dear self.

September 29, 2017

what the hell?

Tiada kata manis yang terungkap untuk kau ku bagi keupayaan buat terbang menerobos ruang angkasa.
-- 11/05/2012.