August 20, 2017

not new vocabs.

skins, lips, cloudy stares, hairs, hands, fingers, thumping hearts, heavy breathing, tongues, ears, neck, sweat, wet, blood, scars, wails, cigs, sins, and suicide.

August 10, 2017

happy 1 year anniversary, dear self.

hello. long time no write.

it's not actually that long it's just, i used to write 3-4 post a month. dan ini bukan posting sedih.

taknak sound cliche but... life has been very good to me this past months. i am blessed. i am blessed for every little thing that you'd probably be annoyed by now. that sometimes, aku rasa that i dont deserve this much blessings. macam, i am happy but some people are having it worse i feel guilty for having such feelings. i am allowed to but life is a running wheel.

once, a good friend of mine said, "kau bagilah camera apa pun kat sarah, the pictures will turn out good." also, i wrote "i am a fast learner" in my resume. i just wanted to point that out. anyway, i actually prayed hard for a job that specifically has a non-stressful and good environment kinda job, like real hard. my degree doesn't deserve this? well, suck my ass. also, thanks for all the advises and supports i get from lovely people you guys are the real mvp i am so grateful.

meanwhile, here's my 2017 achievements so far because... (i am allowed to.)


ps// 5th: gained weight also lost 0.7kg later on. 7th: not yet achieved but insyaAllah.
pps// funny as we turned older, we no longer talk much about who gets better marks but who gets better pay/opportunity/career. i always find it exhausting to talk about people.