April 27, 2014
I'm not exaggerating neither do I lie about it. It feels great to read again although having my mind concentrating it was hard plus the throb I had. My head wandered to places and things escaping from being trapped with the content of the book I had to read line by line over again.
After all, english lit is the best. I can't wait to read japanese novels and discover everyone's minds worth going thorough.
April 20, 2014
And all of my dreams seems impossible.
Sometimes, having a goal in life is tiring. Because you have to work to make it happen. I'm not an overachiever but I know where I stand and where I am going. And it's not that impossible I just feel like tired.
I have become at least a few people's inspiration. Or maybe just one. And I seldom think that, is this the way it is? Is this how it's suppose to be?
I don't have any idea. And I can't seem to think of another way of not taking this way. God, help me.
April 17, 2014
Now that it comes to my mind, it's just so funny when you are a direct intake student, but people still look at you like a freshie. Maybe some but, there must be.
What I mean here is, a student who just changed faculty and going up a level of achievement or certificate, whichever, even by this means that that student is there for more than a year than other freshies, but, others (senior) still look at them (directs) like a freshie. Weird huh?
So they (directs) gain attention just like the other freshies. Especially the girls. So it's like pisang goreng dipanaskan semula. I find this awkwardly funny.
April 16, 2014
So I had my coffee just 2 hours before and I've done watching 2 Japanese dramas. This is quite not me because I don't really watch drama I've just restarted it just to learn some new vocab for my Japanese class. I've said restarted because I used to watch drama when I was in middle school and I stopped for not really particular reasons I just don't wanna watch any more dramas. And so I watched this 2 dramas:
April 11, 2014
I have so muuuch in my head you don't even wanna know. If you're on my tweets, you know exactly what I mean.
Once, I had a thought of me taking a different path in life, chose the weird way that the me now wouldn't ever wanna choose; be a part of ma'ahad scholar. Weird really. But I know then I won't be this stressful if I were to choose to be there. It'd be different. It'd be more meaningful than not knowing where are you in the future because after all, I'd have one thing that I'd believe so much and I don't have to be so afraid of failures. Because I'm on the right path.
That is what I think.
May god bless me in everything I do.
April 6, 2014
April 3, 2014
I had this thing stuck in my mind first when a friend of mine spilled out everything about her relationship stuff.
I think, one is doing good enough in a relationship once one gives one's heart wholly.
Yes, you can't live just by loving someone because you still have to eat, you'll need a shelter and life's still going on and of course you'll need money. But for me, it's more than enough.
I've known myself for the girl who's hardly to fall, who has a concrete wall build up high, who has more guy friends than girls; girls like me really put up on one guy like she's gonna grow old with this only guy and stuff, even going through shits and lots of gossips. We are the hopeless romantics, helpless indeed. That's why it is very important to us for everyone to know, what it's meant for us to fall in love.
It's not just love lust and bla bla, it's about committing self to commitment. It's more than just a relationship so please do understand.