raya post(?)

sempena raya or end of this ramadhan, i wanna list out several things i regret doing:

i. knowing a character so well i ended up dealing with it every day for the whole year.

ii. i did not ignore things i should have.

iii. i cared too much of my own feelings, compared too much, jealous over things that were not mine.

iv. i was too stupid to actually care.

v. i did not see beyond the hardships and struggles.

vi. questioned about fate. questioned about rezeki. questioned about hardworks. compared, compared and compared.

somehow, i feel grateful. because of all the things listed, i managed to create a better me. sekurang-kurangnya i can see what i'm lacking and learn. i see myself at the worst, at the bottom. "connecting the dots," aite?

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on this platform, trying to release everything that has been going inside my head today. i always find myself being okay with everything and...