it's been like almost 9 years aku bermastautin(?) di bumi Kuala Lumpur. who would've thought, i'm gonna end up here. well, at least for now isnt it? once, aku cakap kat one of my friends, "i wouldnt wanna work or settle in here, in KL. especially not here." dengan nada bongkak habis. look now, i'm licking my own shit figuratively.
i'm standing in a rapid moving train.
why not here?
entah. boleh kata, macam macam was on my mind. traffic jams. biggest worry. tolls. communication skills and confidence, which i lack. also, i wanted a long distance relationship. i wanted it to look more like i dont need someone more important than my family. but, i couldnt. habis belajar, terus cari kerja di sini. thinking there wont be any problem since kakak is here in KL. and i was wrong. she moved somewhere outside KL. that is still ok though. maybe, i have always liked it here.
what i liked about here?
the people. the faces. the cafes. the every building is a walking distance reach. the public transport. the bookshops. the sounds. the air. the foods. the homelesses. the parks. the overprice foods.
kalau aku bukan di sini, aku di mana?
ini bukan comfort zone. aku tahu, i'm growing. each and every month, i'm building up my self-worth, my net worth. loving, every inch of me each and everyday. kalau bukan di sini, mungkin bukan aku yang kau sepatutnya jumpa sekarang ini. dan, it's gonna be a very sad me. it's going to be very very sad.