Today i cried in thw shower again for the icantremember-th time. I always try so hard fr the people around me and for myself. But sometimes ppl just cant see my effort. Thts when i cry.

Maybe its true that i've fought god's rules and challenged Him that i had to go through hard times and whatnot. But when yr mom told you that there's smthg wrong with yr amalan when she didnt even see you, that's totally unacceptable.

I cant go on with ths rage bcs its bad. I have to be calm. In a while.